Is this for real?

I have been thinking a lot.Mostly to myself.That seams to one of the problems I didn't figure on.Being alone for most of the day.It's not so bad.I run my list of things to do and stuff around the house.My girlfriend visits me after work or school and the weekends.Although it is quite around here.
I live by myself.It is the first time I have done so in my adult life.It has taken some getting used to,but I kind of enjoy it.I think I can over come the what feels like prision.Of my own making.What I mean is.I dont look at this like work.No one is telling me what to do.Iam the boss.If I dont make any money today I dont get paid.This overwellming fear that I will fail consumes ever moment of the day and night.

Brainwashing

I have spent my entire my listening to other people give me advice on what to do.Get a good job.Find a good woman and settle down.Tried that three times.Still cant get it right.By a house.Pay your bills ontime.Blah Blah Blah.Why?Why should I get a job and work 50 to 60 hours a week for a paycheck.Get Married ..........Pay your bills ontime..yes,but not the day they get here.
My point is its all Brainwashing.That right.My parents and thier parents before them told them the same.It what they belive.They cant change that.I stopped Beliving this about a year ago.
While at my last job(underground coal miner- more on that later)my mind began to ask why to all these preset notions like "Get a Good Job".Why do I need a JOB!It's just a way to make money,is'nt it?I started to think of different ways to bring in Money.This caused the years of Brainwashing to dissappear.

Nine Down and Counting

This is my first post as 4/21/08.On April 15th I left my job.I quit,left without a trace.No thanks,see you later.I just left with out as much as saying a single word to anyone. I have spent months of debating with myself about Self Employment.This is my journey.